• On the Heat of My Tongue

    How do I describe
    that when I first mumbled “mama,”
    they didn’t know if it was English or Chinese

    How do I describe
    that it’s a futile search
    for what sounds my lips first molded to,
    what language first constructed my thoughts,
    when I am still finding my definition of “first”

    How do I describe
    that it’s neither
    fork nor chopsticks
    feeding me morsels of sound
    that fuse on the heat of my tongue

    That I don’t detach my tongue and switch to a spare
    like one might a screwdriver or a wrench
    But my words do rust,
    they tarnish and crumble
    when I no longer forge their shapes
    And when I try to reassemble the syllables,
    they become screeches of metal on metal,
    ugly to my ears
    clumsy between my teeth

    That sometimes I call my mom over the phone
    and forget how to cry in Chinese,
    fluent in “anger” and “sorrow”
    but not in nu and ai
    She begs Merriam Webster
    to relay her daughter’s voice,
    but I know
    and she knows
    we’re searching in different dictionaries,
    and the shelves between us only grow
    King Yee Wang

    King Yee Wang
    Grade: 11

    Mercersburg Academy
    Mercersburg, PA 17236

    Educator(s): Michele Poacelli

    Awards: Poetry
    Silver Medal, 2020

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